"With it"

I miss feeling "with it". I used to be the type of person you would never have to ask twice to do something. I had the opposite problem of procrastination. The second I thought of doing something, I would do it. I never forgot anything. I felt like I had my job so under control there wasn't anything I couldn't do. Every time I am pregnant, I feel less and less "with it". I have never felt more scattered and overwhelmed then I do right now. I know it doesn't get any better once you have the baby either. My cousin Kaysie told me after Warren was born and I was complaining about how different my mind felt she said "didn't you know you birth part of your brain with every child?" It is SO true. I don't want to stop growing our family with 2 kids, but I don't have much brain power left to spare!! My doctor made a great point. Before kids all you had to really think about was yourself, spouse and job. Now with a child, you think about them as much as the other things combined so you don't feel as on top of things that you were before. I guess it's a good trade. Kids for your brain.

23 Week Dr. Visit

How's this for the start of a visit????........
I hate that they put you on the scale right out of the gates. It only makes it worse when the nurse said "oh my, big month for you!" Yep. It took a lot to hold back the tears. I can guarantee my neighbors will see me out walking more often in the next few months!!! If anyone would like to join me, let me know.

Momma's got back.....

I can't believe how incredibly large I feel today. The thing that sucks though is it's not just my stomach. I am not sporting that cute little basketball shaped stomach like many women do. My entire body is expanding. I don't think my butt could possibly get any bigger. The only thing that doesn't seem to be getting bigger on my body right now is my eyeballs. Everything else from my hands, feet, legs, butt, everything is growing. I wasn't ever this self conscious about my size with Warren. I guess since I was working so hard to drop weight before I got pregnant with this guy, I am a little more aware. I look like I could deliver tomorrow.

Feet

Yesterday was a funny pregnant day. I put my shoes on and thought.... no way. How are these tight already? I still have 4 months to go!!! With Warren, the only time my feet got swollen was during the Utah Open, and then when I had 1 week to go. During the Utah Open I was 7 months pregnant and on my feet 15-18 hours a day so it was expected. Then when he was just about 3 weeks from being due and we decided to buy a house and move in. So again, on my feet a lot.
This time around, they don't really look swollen. They just feel bigger. By the end of the day yesterday my shoes were were killing me. I wasn't on my feet very much so I thought it was weird..... until I ready my daily pregnancy note.
I have an awesome app on my iphone. It's a What to Expect app. I get a daily and weekly update. So last night I got in bed and was reading my daily update. How funny that the title would be FEET. It said that it's very common for a woman's feet to grow during pregnancy. Usually a half to full size. Pretty sure that's happening to me. It was interesting to hear the same thing that happens to your pelvic bones with softening and growing happens to your feet, and they don't go back down in size. So, I guess a new shoe wardrobe is in my future! Good for me I guess. People have always made fun of my feet. A size 5 is usually a little big for me. My brother always asks how I can balance on my "hooves". So maybe one day I will have normal sized feet.

No News is Good News

I haven't had much to post on this little pregnancy blog over the past few weeks. For the most part I have felt great. The last couple of days however, I seem to be getting more and more pregnant. The extra weight I am packing around, especially up stairs is getting difficult. My hips KILL. I can't sleep to save my life. I think that is a combo of aching hips and anxiety bursting at the seems. I lay awake at night thinking about a billion things. Anywhere from what I have to do the next day to what I have to get done in the next 120 days. It drives me nuts, but I can't turn my mind off. I can't turn it off on a regular day, but my pregnant brain is even more wired.

The other thing that is showing true signs of pregnancy is how short my temper is. I have been super snappy and I seriously can't help it. It's like my nerves are a tenth the size they usually are. I feel especially bad for Andrew because he is dealing with it every single day. Nothing is funny to me lately. I really don't have a sense of humor to begin with, but it is way worse when I am pregnant. I'm a no nonsense, get 'er done type of girl. The other day I was talking to my sister-in-law Lori. She is one of the only people who thinks my no nonsense attitude is funny. We were talking about texting and how I got a stupid text from someone the other day and I said, not thinking it was funny or anything "if you don't have good information, or what you have to say is going to waste my time, don't bother me with it." She broke into hysterics and said "Oh, my gosh. I LOVE the pregnant Annie." I'm glad someone does because I can't help being so grumpy and snappy. It is what it is.